I started my FINAL semester! May 14, 2011 is only THREE AND A HALF months! Woo hoo!!
Senioritis has hit hard and I am looking forward to graduating. I get a little emotional thinking about it though, because it signifies the end of an era of my life. I mean, for about 17 years, I have gone to school, had homework, had part time jobs, but I have never had a degree that should officially make me capable of supporting myself. As in, I provide insurance, rent money, etc. I pay for the cell phone bill. I don't get to ask mom to help me with Kandi's board. It's me. I am responsible for making sure Kiley has what she needs too. I don't get to use the "I'm just a poor college student" excuse ever again. I am not complaining, it's just a little bitter sweet!
Last week, I posted my resume on CareerBuilder and got two seperate interviews. One company supplies benefits for unions and one helps with retirement planning. I don't hate those prospects...they seem like something that would be meaningful. One is on Tuesday at noon, one on Wednesday at 9:30.
These two interviews coming up have really got me thinking about and stressing over the future. I really want to go to law school in a year or two, but I don't know that I will be able to handle it financially until 3-5 years down the road. I am starting to think putting it off a little would be better because then I could save more and have less debt coming out of law school. I guess plenty of people wait 5 years. That would be okay, forgivable. I am the kind of person who wants it RIGHT NOW. Kind of like when I was drinking, I wanted to feel better RIGHT NOW and the feel of that whiskey coarsing through and warming up my veins helped me feel that way.
I want to write again. I may do a little more for CHA's publication, but I also want to write a book....and articles. I saw A Dog Year with Jeff Bridges last night and it sort of motivated me to start writing seriously again. I like writing and it would be something I could support myself with eventually while I showed more and more...maybe if I ever went pro I could support myself instead of relying on sponsors. I just lost my muse in high school and keep waiting for it to come back. Kiley inspires me sometimes, always when I don't have time to sit down and write. Riding inspires me a lot, especially after a good ride, but again I never have a moment to write at that point...
I want to write about horsemanship, good horsemen, innovative businessmen, honest lawyers, non career politicians, passionate people who fought for what they believe in, women who were brave enough to be mothers AND career women and who still stayed true to themselves, inspiring people, religious leaders, breastfeeding mothers, single mothers, compassionate people who tried to change things....basically, people who matter to the world. Modern day heroes.
